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shamanicshayminJust slept until 7 pm. Woke up feeling depressed. Hungry and there isn't much food in the house. For the first time, not having much motivation to draw pixels, which was what's been keeping me happy the past few days.
My family needs help. A housekeeper. But can we even afford one? My dad's in his 80s and he's gotten really tired lately--too tired for even getting groceries, and his memory is getting poorer. I know his time is running up and he's going to die someday. My brother is the only one with a job and is often busy. The sink is stacked with loads of disgusting dirty dishes, but the dishwasher doesn't work well. We have way too many fucking clothes, but our dryer isn't working either. I gave Lulubelle another flea bath and despite using the best preventive shampoo, the fleas just jump right back. Dad needs to vacuum his room which is likely where all the fleas still are, but again, he's exhausted. I feel like I'm the only one who's putting the most work taking care of all three dogs (who are supposed to be family pets, not just mine), but everything I do isn't enough to catch up with them. The house is a mess and we can't keep up.
The only person I know IRL is my bf Jax, and sometimes he helps by buying a few groceries himself, but I know he has his own family and work to take care of and I don't want to overburden him. I think Dad has one friend total who might direct us to help and resources? I just feel overburdened and helpless and scared and alone.
My family needs help. A housekeeper. But can we even afford one? My dad's in his 80s and he's gotten really tired lately--too tired for even getting groceries, and his memory is getting poorer. I know his time is running up and he's going to die someday. My brother is the only one with a job and is often busy. The sink is stacked with loads of disgusting dirty dishes, but the dishwasher doesn't work well. We have way too many fucking clothes, but our dryer isn't working either. I gave Lulubelle another flea bath and despite using the best preventive shampoo, the fleas just jump right back. Dad needs to vacuum his room which is likely where all the fleas still are, but again, he's exhausted. I feel like I'm the only one who's putting the most work taking care of all three dogs (who are supposed to be family pets, not just mine), but everything I do isn't enough to catch up with them. The house is a mess and we can't keep up.
The only person I know IRL is my bf Jax, and sometimes he helps by buying a few groceries himself, but I know he has his own family and work to take care of and I don't want to overburden him. I think Dad has one friend total who might direct us to help and resources? I just feel overburdened and helpless and scared and alone.
~Just leave it with my secretary since all my skin just sizzled off
Aug. 14th, 2025 10:48 pmzarlaahh THANK YOU FOR BIRTHDAY WISHES i should've made a post sooner but I've been busy lately. It feels like I'm always busy lately!!! Things keep happening!! Why do things keep happening!!
But anyway this time I went to karaoke with some friends (since Alex isn't close enough to do it anymore ;_;) and had a lot of fun, and got to play a bit of ITG, haha. I didn't recognize any of the songs on the machine though! It did have the usb slot, which made me wonder about getting my own favorite step charts and just, keeping them on me if I ever run into another machine in the wild. Which doesn't sound really likely but over the past week I played on an ITG machine AND a Stepmania machine! To be fair I went to an arcade but anyway.
Today I ended up going to Raging Waters with Chris and his family and it was a fun time! Very nostalgic, I haven't been there since I was a kid, haha. It's a nice park, it's not too big so you can hit most of the rides in one day, and there's always places you can go to just do something rather than like, wander around and sit and wait in line at Disneyland, haha. If you got nothing else going on you can just go hang out in the wavepool! Which I did do for a bit.
The thing is, I put on sunscreen twice and tried really hard to stay out of the sun, wore a hat as much as I could, but when I got home I was still sunburned!! I burned up my chest and my back and my shoulders. ;_; I haven't gotten a sunburn in such a long time, I really thought I had it under control! I don't know if I needed to apply more, or maybe I needed a higher spf... anyway, it scares me a little bit though what with the previous bit of skin cancer! I've been trying to avoid this for this exact reason. D: My previous skin cancer was on the top of my head though, but still! Still! Sunburns aren't good for your skin!! I'm worried!!!
Well I put some lotion on it for now to keep it moisturized and I'm gonna try and stay out of the sun if I can, try and keep it from getting too dry. I should really schedule an appointment to see a dermatologist soon just to get a lookover though...
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But anyway this time I went to karaoke with some friends (since Alex isn't close enough to do it anymore ;_;) and had a lot of fun, and got to play a bit of ITG, haha. I didn't recognize any of the songs on the machine though! It did have the usb slot, which made me wonder about getting my own favorite step charts and just, keeping them on me if I ever run into another machine in the wild. Which doesn't sound really likely but over the past week I played on an ITG machine AND a Stepmania machine! To be fair I went to an arcade but anyway.
Today I ended up going to Raging Waters with Chris and his family and it was a fun time! Very nostalgic, I haven't been there since I was a kid, haha. It's a nice park, it's not too big so you can hit most of the rides in one day, and there's always places you can go to just do something rather than like, wander around and sit and wait in line at Disneyland, haha. If you got nothing else going on you can just go hang out in the wavepool! Which I did do for a bit.
The thing is, I put on sunscreen twice and tried really hard to stay out of the sun, wore a hat as much as I could, but when I got home I was still sunburned!! I burned up my chest and my back and my shoulders. ;_; I haven't gotten a sunburn in such a long time, I really thought I had it under control! I don't know if I needed to apply more, or maybe I needed a higher spf... anyway, it scares me a little bit though what with the previous bit of skin cancer! I've been trying to avoid this for this exact reason. D: My previous skin cancer was on the top of my head though, but still! Still! Sunburns aren't good for your skin!! I'm worried!!!
Well I put some lotion on it for now to keep it moisturized and I'm gonna try and stay out of the sun if I can, try and keep it from getting too dry. I should really schedule an appointment to see a dermatologist soon just to get a lookover though...
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